Reason Behind My Topic

     My parents.  They aren't perfect, but then, who's parents are?  My parents and their decisions are what have inspired me to write this blog.  My parents were young teenage parents, who made young, teenage mistakes.  I love my parents, but I hate what they did to me.  They were not ready to get married, most teenagers aren't.  However, when I came along, they thought it would be best for me.  It wasn't very long until the chaos settled in.  My mother a party girl, my father enrolled in the Coast Guard.  Their differences were unsettle able, opposites no longer attracted.  Because of my parents decisions, I spent most of my time with my grandparents.  I lived on a cold hot dog and Cheese Puff diet.  Soon enough, my parents reached their breaking point with each other.  They settled on divorce, pretty much the only thing those two had agreed on in ages.  They decided the court date to determine who I would be living with from now on. When the time came for the court date, my mother never even bothered to show up.  The first in a long line of abandonment from her.  My grandmother ended up being the one to have to call my father and tell him that my mother was out of control, and that he had to come and get me. 
     I want to research the damage that divorce and abandonment leaves on a child.  I remember, and still experience the hurt of my mother not caring, not calling on my birthday, no presents and family Christmases.  All normal things that normal kids get to have. My mother had the chance to win custody of me, to have me in her life, and she threw it away.  My mother and I haven't seen each other in years, I'm to the point where I only remember the basics of what she looks like and how her voice sounds.  It breaks my heart to know that there are millions of kids out in there in our country that are having to go through the same things I am.  What I am hoping to achieve with this blog is to let other teens know that they are not alone in the struggles they face, that there are people out there who share your hurt and share your confusion.  By researching the effects of divorce and abandonment, I hope to show not only teens, but also adults that the choices you make today, effect your life tomorrow.